The artist is not a person endowed with free will who seeks his own ends, but one who allows art to realize its purpose within him.
Where have I been and what have I been doing?
First, I have been recovering from the cancer and it's treatment. Second, my mother was very ill and in need my attention.
I am rather confused by the new economy and where I fit into it, as many of you may be.
I am just realizing that I had cancer for a year. Wow. Cancer. I just went through it and now it registers. I don't know what that's about.
I want to continue with my doll network but it seems to have slowed down so much that it is not profitable any longer. Is it me? Should I be offering more? Should I teaching somewhere else? Should I be teaching at all? Dissappointed by students who decided to take what they learned from me and teach it themselves, calling it their own. Selling the dolls they learned from and not giving me credit for the design. Charging alot more than I do for the classes I might add. Is that how it is supposed to work? I'm not sure.
So today I say...I have beaten cancer and I have offered what I have to offer and still I feel no sense of accomplishment. I am standing here wondering what to do next. I will figure it out. Til next time.....